It's white here, blank, not the kind of white you see in the clouds or the white that you see on the first snow of the winter
it's blank, blanker than it's ever been
I read the blog
Cam's dead cam's dead and I'm not even there for my team
have you ever been falling for so long you're not sure if you're standing or if the ground is rushing up to meet you
pleased to meet you mr. slim, cause you see, he looked so happy on that night I just couldn't tell him, can't you see? I couldn't have told him, couldn't have, couldn't have, couldn't have, it would have ruined everything-
it's not my fault.
But it is my fault
because I didn't even try
"He was right behind him. Christ, they're not going to last, are they?"
I didn't mean it
I didn't mean it i didn't mean it I swear I didn't mean it
I wasn't sure how much they all remembered about the night I found them.
Do you know what it looks like when someone is begging you to live? What about all the ones I didn't save?
What about all the ones I chose not to save?
I'm not even sure who I am anymore
Not sure what I'm for
what good I do
I don't do any good, it's just business, don't take it personally, but I can't take all of them in
or at least I tell myself-
... If I had told them
Would he have believed me?
I'm going to die here, aren't I?
I'm going to die and leave them all alone
Please god I don't want to die I don't want to help Him I don't want this I DON'T WANT THIS I DON'T WANT THIS ANYMORE
Please just let me keep Him away
I can't do that to all of them again
They need me
they need me
... Don't they?